June oh June

June 2009, a month of greatness for many.

for my dearest best friend, it's the month she is signed to be editor in chief of an internationally well known woman magazine.

for my dearest sister, it's the month when she is announced pregnant, after 4 years of waiting.

for my dearest colleague, it's the month that she gives birth to her second child, a lovely baby boy.

And for me, June 2009, at the 25th to be precise, is the time that i hit the big 30 and is proposed to get married :)

Mazeltov June!

argument

For Kitty McCalister Walker, arguing is like the center of her days. when she argues, it shows that she still cares. when she argues, she doesn't always intend to win, it just when she argues, she will know that the issue matter for her. because when it doesn't (anymore), she will not argue (anymore). she would just agree, nod her head and leave. it doesn't always mean that she agree, but it will always mean it doesn't matter (anymore) for her.

. i am too a Kitty McCalister Walker. when an issue matters for me, i would have the time to argue. i will give the time and energy to argue. i will think my best to argue. not necessarily to win, but i often notice even by not winning in an argument, we can too put ideas in people's head. So when i think it matters for me, and i want the best out of it, i do it in the funniest way for some people maybe. i argue.

but when it doesn't matter for me, i would just agree. when i'm with a client or the media, i prefer not to argue too much, because what i need is a good relationship more than anything. that way, we can ask them to do things, in a sense of keeping good relationship.

when i'm with my subordinates or my boss, i argue a lot. Many times, to win (lol), but also to inject ideas to their head, that not everything has to be done in their ways (or my ways for that matter). And so, with my siblings and family. i argue a lot. this is because i know they will take me for who i truly am, so nothing has to be frighten of in an argument.

and when it comes to my friend, well.. i always looked at the situation. when i know it's not polite or necessary or even the best of time to argue, then i tend to accept, but later on when the condition is possible to argue, then i do it. holding back an argument, is not the same as not arguing. well at least that's what i think.

i remembered when i stopped to argue. it was the last rough couple of months of my relationship with this man. i stop to argue, because i don't think arguing matters anymore. i know how hard, how true and how sincere my argument was, i will never win nor get ideas in his head anymore. so i stop the argument. everything he said, i just listen, and sure that he knows what's best for him.

i stop arguing. then it all ended. because he and i doesn't matter anymore....

Spouse Vs Cell Phone

i realized something new today.

As i accompanied a relative today to look for new cell phone, i came to a conclusion that searching for a new cell phone is almost equal to look for a spouse.

One cell phone will never have a the things you want. A cell might have the best features, but the style might not suit to your liking. others got great appeal, but the features are so so. When you found one that's most likely to your needs, both feature and style, the budget just doesn't fit yours well.

And the features, one might be missing of a 3G connection, others are without excellent mega pixel camera, some are missing wi-fi or bluetooth or infra red, and many are just plain phone without any prominent features.

But each one got their own market, and considered just o.k for the users.

All you got to do, is pick one (hopefully that fits what you need best), and hang on to it.. And so the same goes for choosing your spouse. Choose one that fits you best, and all the lacks that come along with it, well you just learn to except it as it is.

Because there's no way one person has all the things that you want in a perfect spouse.

envious?

i was at lunch in a fancy & quiet cozy spot downtown with a friend when the topic popped up.

She was saying 'i opened a friends fb page earlier,and reading her status 'mom to be' doesnt make me want to congratulate her. Instead i just closed the page.

I can relate, knowing that she and her husband are trying to get pregnant for sometimes now. But i cant help myself but wonder 'is it true that we can only be happy for others if we feel enough and above?'.. Can we trully embrace their happiness when it or something better has NOT happened to us?.. How about the term that each of us has our own portion and timing?

Is this feeling is what known as envious? Or it just something so human that we all have in our heart?

I know i have it in me sometimes...

alone

i had the house to myself today.. well, not for long. but it made me realized something. i hate being alone..

Despite all the 'individualist metropolis' label that is so often attached to me, or in the many times that i hate it when my mom keep on babbling while i try to read or watch something, or when i enjoyed my alone traveling time, i am not the alone material type.eventhough it is not in the sense that i begged everybody to be there all the time, but i need my family, my friends, and everyone else.

next time that my best friend asks if i missed my personal space (coz i dont even have my own room) my answer will be no.

i've decided that i dont want to have the rest of my life alone, i want to have a family, a family of my own. with the needy disturbing husband and adoring children who depends on us.. So help me God!